The pictures may not be the best for before and after, but the picture on the left was this past Saturday so the most recent I have and the one on the right was when I was at my heaviest – 50 pounds ago, well 53 pounds ago to be exact!
When I saw the picture of me on the right I was shocked. I couldn’t believe that I looked that heavy. The weight sneaks up on you. You don’t see it creeping up on you, at least I didn’t. I was so focused on school and studying for the bar and I ate poorly and then sat at a desk studying for hours at a time.
Comparing myself to 50 pounds ago I see the physical differences. My face is thinner, I’ve lost 2 clothing sizes, but really there is so much more.
50 pounds ago I wasn’t happy. I got to this place and wasn’t sure what to do. I made an attempt, starting last August, to start this journey, but I realized along the way that I had so many more issues, so many more things to focus on besides calories in and calories out. Sure, how you lose weight is simple – but really emotionally it is really difficult. It takes time, you have to be ready, you have to really want it.
The difference 50 pounds makes is huge. On the journey to lose this first 50 pounds I’ve accomplished so much. I’ve learned that I actually enjoy exercising, it makes me feel good about myself. I feel proud when I conquer something that I didn’t think I could do. I’ve started swimming again, returned to a sport that I loved, but was too embarrassed to wear a swim suit. I put myself out there more. I’m happier. I’m more confident.
I am more confident that I can do this. I am capable of changing my habits and losing the weight to lead a healthier life. I know it will take me a long time and that’s ok. Day by day, I will continue to work on myself. I will continue to learn better habits and make new routines. Little by little I will get there. I’m sure of it.
50 pounds really make a huge difference.