April 20th last year I was the maid of honor for my cousin’s wedding. I honestly can’t believe that a year has passed, it is crazy how quickly it has flown by. The wedding was so beautiful and it was a great time. I found myself looking through photos from the wedding this weekend and comparing myself a year ago to now.
Surprisingly, or not really, I don’t have a full body picture of me alone that I could find, but I can see some small differences from April 20th last year to a pic taken of me this past April 19th (below)
There really is only about a 15 pound difference between the 2 pictures because I gained back a considerable amount that I originally lost after the wedding. However, I am a size smaller now than I was at that wedding.
Physically there may not be that much of a difference. Not a huge weight change, only 1 clothing size difference, but mentally I feel like I’ve grown a lot as a person. I’ve now been living a year in the new house. Definitely more independent and on my own. I have way more responsibility at work because I’m not a brand new attorney anymore. So there are those life changes, but also I feel like through the struggle of last year I became much more self-aware.
I’ve learned that you have to really want it to make it work. You can’t be doing it for a wedding or another function because you will just gain it back, most likely. I’ve learned that I have way more of an emotional eating/bingeing problem than I was allowing myself to admit a year ago. I am much more aware of triggers and patterns and working hard to conquer them.
Probably what I am most proud of is the differences I’ve made on the fitness front. I’ve done so many things in the gym that I didn’t think I was capable of. I constantly find myself pushing new boundaries and that is something that the old me wouldn’t have done. The fact that I’m back in the pool is huge. For me it is a major accomplishment that I’ve returned to the one exercise I love that I avoided for 5 years.
I may have only reached a total of 53 pounds lost since I’ve started this journey because I allowed myself to gain after that wedding, so I have a long way to go, but I’m proud that I’ve made it this far. Each day is an opportunity to learn and to make each day better than the last. I’m confident that I will be very pleased when I look back at this post next year and see the even greater difference I know I will see.
It isn’t all about pounds lost. It is so much more than that. The person I am today is happier and healthier. I’m ready to keep going in the right direction this year.