So this is just a bit of venting. My personal rant.
I haven’t been myself lately. I haven’t felt like blogging. I’ve been down in general. Part of the reason I think is because of wedding blues I’ve been feeling lately. I’m not saying that I need to be married tomorrow or any of that jazz, but I’m the last single one of my friends. I’m always the third wheel.
I’m currently getting ready to be in 2 more weddings. I’m honored that I’ve been asked to be a bridesmaid, but it really stunk that I’m going solo to this first one later this month. I was given an “and guest” but alas I have no one.
Being single isn’t always fun. I’ve been trying the online dating thing now for almost 6 months and it hasn’t really led to anything but awkward experiences. I guess any experience helps, but it is frustrating. It makes me feel inadequate. Unwanted.
I don’t know. I’ve just been down lately and haven’t been motivated to blog. However, blogging had become something I really enjoyed so I’m not going to just let it go. I’m going to make an honest effort to just brush off my shoulders on focus on myself and what I have to offer and not my perceived inadequacies.
So much of my struggle, when it comes to dating, is my weight. I try to not let it hold me back, but I know it is probably the first thing people notice. What can you do?
I know I probably need to give the online thing more time. Who knows.
Hopefully good things really do come to those who wait?
Ok, well enough of me complaining. I’m just going to focus on myself and hopefully keep moving in positive directions.