June is now here and with the Summer so begins the wedding season. I love weddings. It is beautiful celebrating a couple’s love and, of course, who doesn’t love a good party?
Not to be the Debby downer, but weddings also bring about the intense realization that I am still single. It is interesting that I don’t really feel rushed at any other time. I’ve just turned 28 and finally settling into my career, not just a job, and I’m happy. I have a great family, great friends, but then going to a wedding single is still upsetting, to a certain degree. I still have an amazing time and dance up a storm, but I think part of me does long for the day that it will be my turn. At least I hope someday it is in the cards for me.
Everyone always tells you that it will happen when you least expect it. When you aren’t looking – bam – it happens. Well, I’m not sure how much I believe that. I mean I guess if so many people say it that there must be some truth to it, but I also think that if you want to find someone that you have to put yourself out there. I can’t sit on a couch and expect that someone will just walk into me on the street. So, as awkward as it may often be, I’m still putting myself out there.
I don’t know if guys feel this way at all, but why is it that us girls tend to have that panic feeling almost around weddings as we get older? That fear that we will always be alone or whatever. I don’t know, but I do know that I definitely have realized that it does affect me emotionally. I struggle with emotional eating. Somewhere along the line I learned that food can be comforting or a coping mechanism, but it only brings temporary relief and afterwards I think makes you feel worse.
I’m a bridesmaid in my best friend’s wedding this month and I am beyond thrilled for her. She is an amazing person and I would do anything for her. She deserves all the happiness in the world. But, it is frustrating at times being the single friend as everyone seemingly moves on with their lives.
Oh well, I’m going to continue to focus on my health. Focus on continuing to build healthy habits and when the time is right, I’m sure I’ll get there someday. I can’t be the only one who has had bridesmaid blues before, right?